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Note To Self… September 13, 2013

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Never purchase another vehicle that isn’t white. It just gets too dirty on our gravel road. (and I hate a dirty looking car.)

Never purchase another vehicle with black interior. It gets too hot to even sit on or touch anything.

I won’t be attending anymore class reunions. If I am still alive for the next one in 10 years, and I mention that I want to go, just shoot me. (Enough said about class reunions. I am so over that.)

Don’t allow me to haul anything that is long or has sharp edges in my vehicle again. (I think I will need constant reminding of this one!)

If my family (i.e. husband and son) doesn’t start answering their cell phones when I or other family members call, I will have them shut off.

Yes, my husband is damn lucky to have me!

And the next time my man tells me “you look good for your age” I will be taking him to the nearest hog farm (as hogs will eat everything!)

Live life like you believe.

Never trust myself to remember something.  Make a note of it.

Don’t hide things…I will never remember where I put them.

Always be honest, even if saying the truth can hurt.  It is better than trying to remember the lies you told.

Don’t lose your way. Finding yourself can be difficult. (even GPS won’t help)

Never get your hopes up!  When it doesn’t happen then you can’t be disappointed. But if it does, then you will be thrilled.

It is easy to take things for granted.  Just don’t let yourself be taken for granted!

“Never forget what your knees are for.”

Make sure to shower daily, so when you open your mouth and insert your foot it won’t taste so bad.

Never be afraid of failure. For with failure comes learning.

Life is messy. So get dirty.

 

 

“You never know the end at the beginning” July 22, 2013

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I was reading a book yesterday, Sparrow Road by Sheila O’Connor, and come across this line, “You never know the end at the beginning.” I paused to ponder. The journey and ending are always unknown; a gamble, a mystery.

As I thought about this line I was reminded of the poem by Robert Frost, The Road Not Taken, where only the beginning is known but it is suggested that you can always travel the other path later. Can one get to the end of a journey and not liking it, double back to take the other path? Once you reach the end of the road your life is changed forever. And if your life is already changed, the other path may now be different. I guess there is no going back either way you look at it.

So we don’t know the ending to our journeys, only the beginning and perhaps an idea of where we would like to end up. So is the ending as important as the journey itself? I am thinking that the stones we set our feet upon, the obstacles we hurdle, the hurt and healing we go through, the growth we experience along the way determines the end we reach. Is the end truly the end, or just the start of a new beginning?

 

Awkward! June 29, 2013

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Donning my name tag I began to move about the crowd looking for familiar faces, names, anything. Boy, did I feel awkward.

A couple of weeks ago I was notified of my high school   30th class reunion (the one I actually graduated from – see post Class Reunion).  Ok…I should go check it out.  I met up with a good friend of mine and we went together.

I attended this same class reunion for the 20 year version.  I must have forgotten what that was like or I would not have gone to this one.

So as I was making the rounds reading people’s names, and they mine, there was this moment of silence and a look of non-recognition on both our faces.  “No I don’t remember you,” and moving on…  After about an hour of this I sat and crowd watched.  It was then I realized that I didn’t fit in with any of these people in high school and I still didn’t fit in with them now.  What was I thinking?  There was no one there I wanted to see much less have a conversation with.  So I left.  It wasn’t that no one remembered me, because two actually did.  But the people there were not my people…not the handful of people I ran with in high school.  Sitting there I had the same lonely feeling I had back then.  I wasn’t part of the “in” crown or the “out crowd”.  I was just one in the crowd.

So now I have this dilema…I still have another class reunion in August to go to (the high school I didn’t graduate from).  Basically this would be my old neighborhood kids from grade school.  I was kind-of looking forward to that one. Should I go?  If so, I intend to drag my husband with me so if I get that awkward feeling, again, we will at least have a date night out of the deal.

A week ago I heard Jase on Duck Dynasty say this about attending his class reunion, “If I haven’t talked to you in 20 years there has to be a reason why.”  Well said and I am just saying it too!

 

Class Reunion June 1, 2013

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“I hope someone remembers me.”

I just received an invitation to my 30th high school class reunion.  I did not graduate from that high school.  I grew up with all of them until we moved in 7th grade.  So I was surprised when I got the email inviting me to come.    At first I was excited, then became nervous.  I haven’t seen these people since 7th grade.  Will I remember them?

Over the years I have wondered where some were at, searching on Facebook and Classmates.  A time or two I have even dug out the old yearbooks and reminisced awhile…playing kickball in the street beside our house, the miles we put on our bikes riding around the neighborhood and then farther (not sure my mom knew about those times), walking to and from school with friends, a stolen kiss in the coat closet, being one of the fastest runners in the school, collecting a half a million bottle caps.   Not all my memories of grade school were pleasant ones…I was always the last to be picked for teams at recess, the nickname one boy gave me, the slumber party I left early from.

Thanks to technology I was able to open up the class page on Facebook and see who had RSVP they would be attending.  Some names I knew, some I did not. One RSVP post said  “I hope someone remembers me.”  That really got me thinking.  I wondered what school memories this person had.

Should I go?  What will it be like seeing some of them again?  I realized that I do not know these people anymore.  And while the reunion would give me chance to reconnect with a few of them…Would they remember me???

 

Fun in the snow February 27, 2013

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Ein pulling Emma sledding

Ein pulling Emma sledding

clearing the roads

clearing the roads

My family waits for snow days!

The kids love snow days because they can go sledding.  On the farm that means that they want to be pulled around on the hood of a car or a stop sign (don’t ask) behind the four wheeler or gator.  The last time they did this a broken ankle occurred.  I am happy to report that there were no broken bones this time around!

My husband loves snow days because he too can play.  His choice is putting the plow blade on the tractor and plowing the driveway, the road out to the blacktop, then the next road, and next road, and…you get the idea.  Once the roads and neighbors around us have been plowed out it was off to save friends 7 miles away.  I must admit we had the only plowed and passable roads in the county immediately following storm number one.  We couldn’t get to the highway, but could get to our friends! Thank goodness, I needed out of the house!

 

Getting Older January 27, 2013

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My father turned 76 this weekend.  It is hard for me to believe that he is that old.  I have watched him age, more so the last several years, but in my eyes he is still this young man that I have looked up to and admired my whole life.

He had a birthday celebration I attending, which many of his old crones were there.  After being around these wonderful people since I was little, I was reminded that none of us our timeless.  One of them had some difficulties opening a package of cigars and I got so tickled watching these three  70 year old men trying to help each other open this package.  I was touched at how their friendship has stood the test of time, that they are still there, willing to help each other with anything they needed.  When I am that age, may I be so blessed!

It is difficult watching your parents age.  When we are young we see them as strong independent people with no faults.  But as we get older and our own values and morals are defined, we begin to see them in a different light.  They actually have faults, or actions that we don’t agree with.  We might not always see eye to eye.  Feelings get hurt, disappointments ensue.  Though we must remind ourselves that they are still our parents, and in the end we must love them unconditionally!  Just as a parent loves their child unconditionally.  For no one, except Jesus, is faultless.  And forgiveness and paitence are virtues that we have all been given.  No one knows how much time we have on this Earth and it is better to live each day in love!

 

Is life that busy? January 13, 2013

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This has been a nice weekend (most weekends are).  Although I stayed lazy too long on Saturday, the evening turned out great.  With snow coming down, my husband and I headed out to meet up with our old neighbors for dinner and catching-up.  It had been too long…2 years.  We really enjoyed seeing them, talking about what was going on in our lives now, getting caught-up on the neighborhood gossip, and reminisce about when we lived down the street.  I was reminded how much I miss them!  At the end of the evening there was talk of how it had been too long and we shouldn’t let so much time go by without getting together again.  How many times have we all said that or heard that?   Why do we allow so much time to pass before getting together with family and friends?  Is life that busy?

A week ago, I ran into an old friend whom I had lost touch with (probably 13 years ago).  I had thought of her often but had never made the initative to find her.  Shame on me!

It just seems when you get married and have kids, your whole world revolves around them.  That is your world. You are mom or someone’s wife.  You forget to be you.  That includes taking time not only for yourself, but to get together with loved ones.  After all they are the ones who helped you become who you are today. Sometimes you have to take all the hats off and let your hair down, or “you” will get lost.  I believe it is when we get lost, that we begin to have an identity crisis, which can effect our well being and the well being of our relationships with our spouse’s and children.  I know…I think I had that.  But I found myself again.  And part of that is connecting with who you are, doing the things that are important to you, and being around those you have known and loved.

Is life that busy?  Or do we just get in our own little world and forget to take time for what is really important? Our friends and family.  I went years without seeing my cousins (what a shame) for I love them dearly.  They were a big part of my life as a kid. Over the last year we have reconnected and try to have a family get together atleast once every two months.  I know that I am better for having them back in my life.

Is life that busy?  No…It is what we make it.  So stop making excuses and putting things off.  Take time to reconnect with family and friends.  You never know how much joy you are missing.  You never know when it will be too late.  And you just might find yourself along the way!

 

 
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